Friday, October 31, 2008
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8:43 AM
Halloween
So it's already Halloween...
Yet I still need to visit my deceased relatives' spirits soon.
I miss them.
Labels: spells
Monday, October 27, 2008
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4:26 AM
An Adventure Awaits
One afternoon, I was taking my usual nap, after feeling very weary from the blasted weather. After a short while, I thought I heard some voices coming from my classmates, but I didn't mind.
"It's just the start of my dream..." I mumbled, as I tugged the cloth around me, dozing of my Z's
After hours, I slowly opened my eyes, and I found something very unusual.
A pair of cockroaches in a shape of a dead rose bud.
I'm not sure if they were staring at me, and one of them just crawled around under a chair while the other flew on top of the doorknob.
Damn, another stupid dream... get real, man... I thought, as I closed my eyes again.
Minutes later, I thought I heard some soft buzzes. I opened my eyes in a hidden disbelief when I saw the pair of cockroaches still in the same place. Only this time, I can really tell they are staring at me.
"Goddammit, where the hell are the others?" I mumbled, as I stood up from my bed. The cockroaches just stood themselves on the same spot as they are. I grunted and I shouted, "Hey guys, can't you see there's a pair of cockroaches here? Can someone kill them from me, please?"
Not a single reply was heard after that.
"... Guys...?"
No reply.
"G-Guys...? Hey, come on, I'm dead serious here! There's a bunch of fucking cockroaches here, for the love of God!"
Still no reply.
The cockroaches still started at me. I thought I broke a cold sweat, but the cockroaches didn't even do a single thing to me.
Suddenly, I heard a voice.
"For your information, girl, your family's not here."
"WHAT?!" I turned around trying to find where the voice came from. "Hey, who's there?! Show yourself! And tell me what the hell's going on!" I demanded.
"Well, like I said. Everyone in this house is gone. Even the people who you treasure are gone from this world. Meaning... you're all alone now."
"NO FRIGGIN' WAY, MAN! Come on out and show yourself, dammit! Who are you?!"
An image of a girl then appeared before me. I thought my eyes were fogged up, but I realized I'm wearing my contact lenses.
Because the girl in front of me... was me. My dark copy. She was wearing some sort of an Indian costume, like Julia Chang of the Tekken video game series. (Believe me, I was all "What the fuck...?!")
I was speechless at first. My dark copy then smirked and said, "What? Surprised? Cat got your tongue?" She then laughed evilly. When my senses came back to me, I demanded, "Hey, what the fuck is going on? Are you pulling my leg? I-It's not even Halloween, dammit!" She then replied, "Oh, that's just you, as always... You wanted proof, riiiiight?" I just fell silent. She then sighed, and chanted something I don't understand.
It was then I realized we were transported into a world unknown.
~*~
The land we dropped by was beautiful. It was a field full of flowers, as their petals blew away with the wind. I could even hear the river's water rushing peacefully. Even the blue sky was painted in splashes of crystal clear white.
But enough of the landscape. Where in the world am I?
I turned around to see my dark copy. She smiled as she said, "It's beautiful, isn't it? Too bad you must find your loved ones here." I gave a confused look, and asked, "Wait... are you telling me my family is here?" She snapped her fingers as she said, "Yup! You've got that right girl! But it's not only your family, ya know... it's ALL the people you met and treasured." I was still confused. "I... don't understand."
"HAH! Don't be naive, girl!" she snapped. "Think about it. Can you not remember the ones you treasured? You know, your friends and even your... boyfriend."
I was shocked, but I was also confused by the last word she emphasized.
"My... boyfriend?"
She nodded.
"Well, ex-CUSE me," I said, "but I have no boyfriend. Hell, I don't even remember having a boyfriend, what the fuck..."
"Don't deny it," she snapped. "Whatever. Anyway, if you wish to see them, you'll have to travel around in this world." I listened attentively. "See, depending on how much you love and care about that person, you'll eventually find him or her along the way," she continued. "Which means, more love and care you have on that person, the further you'll have to travel to meet them." She then smirked. "And it may also mean that they're with my master..."
"Wait... are you telling me my family is with that master of yours?"
"Most probably."
I felt blood rushing to my body as the thought passed through my head. Of all things, why must this happen?! I could only ask without any answer at all.
"And since you're just starting, why don't we have... a little sparring?" My dark copy said with a playful smile. I gave her a stupid look, saying, "Dude, what the fuck? Do I look like a fighter to you? I mean, hell, you MAY look like Julia Chang, but I'm no Lily!"
"Just shut your trap and fight me!" She then flew a punch right at my face. Strangely though, I was able to block it with my hand. She then flew back, and started to give me a strong kick. And out of the blue, a katana appeared in my hand, as I block the impact of her kick. As I fell onto the ground with my bottom, I looked at the reflection at the river near me.
I was dumbfound of what I saw.
There in the clear water showed myself wearing some sort of a costume that looked like a mixture of Ragnarok Online's Acolyte and Swordsman.
Why the hell am I wearing this?! I thought.
But never mind that. My thoughts returned to my dark copy, with a smack on my side.
Angry at the blow she gave me, I counter-attacked with a slice on her arm with my katana. She then gave me a series of punches, only to be blocked by my katana. I then counter-attacked again by swinging my katana above her head, cutting the feather on her headband into half. After all these, since when the hell did I learn how to fight like that?!
My dark copy then smirked, and said, "Heh. You're not that bad yourself." She then stood firmly on the ground with her arms folded. I then sheathed my katana back to my side, as I asked, "Of all things, why must I do this?" She answered with a sigh, "Think of it as a test... Besides, my master wants to see more from you... and see to see yourself how much you love the people you met along the way." I was little confused, but I nodded anyway. "We'll be seeing each other in the final showdown with my master..." she said with a smirk. "By the way, you can also use magic, ya know." Well, that made me startled. When I touched the area where she first punched me, my hand glowed, and in the instance, the bruise was gone.
Damn, it's just one of the RPGs and anime I used to watch, I would say.
"Well then... till we meet again..." she said, as she slowly disappeared into the horizon. "Wait!" I cried. "I still don't understand all this! Who ARE the people I deeply cared about?!"
Too late. She's totally gone now.
I sighed as I shook my head.
Great... now what am I going to do...? Honestly, I don't know. All I could do now is... travel, I guess. And my starting point? The river.
~*~
I felt a little stupid to wade the water, but something tells me I
have to get there. The further I walked, the more I realized that the river is actually connected to a waterfall. I then felt like climbing against the raging waters. There were some rocks for me to hold on, and my hands and feet felt like lizard feet, so I no problem, never mind the waters that have to hit my face.
As I climbed even higher, I thought I heard voices. And they sounded familiar. And it's not just that. It's like they're crying for help. I looked upward at my side, and I, with no mistake, I can see two of my classmates (one male and one female). They looked like as if they are struggling from a cat-like creature.
Without a moment to lose, I jumped and landed near to them, facing the attacker. The creature was quite strong, as it quickly pinned me onto the ground. We were struggling, as my classmates shuddered in fear by the scene. The creature gave me a good pack of scratches in my face. But I didn't care if my face was already blood red. I then took out my katana, and pierced the creature's heart. Tired of being bathed with blood, I threw the dead creature aside, and cast a healing spell on me. I then turned to my classmates, as they thanked me. They then slowly disappeared.
"Wait!" I cried before they disappeared. "Where are the others?"
"... I dunno..." my female classmate replied. "But all we know is they're nearby..." They were completely gone now, but not without saying goodbye and good luck to me.
Strangely, I smiled slowly. It was then I realized they will return to the real world after I meet up with them. With determination burning within me, I saw the nearest town, and headed right there, knowing I'll meet them up somehow... and try to figure out who my boyfriend is.
~*~
Some strange news swept in the town I am currently staying. It was about a group of young people being trapped in an empty building. Hoping it may be my friends, I decided to pack up, and head towards the said building.
As soon as I went there, I could hear cries from the building. There were some guards, so I sneaked in quietly. Finally inside, I found the rest of my classmates. Somehow, they were forced to eat something, like food that have been expired. Where's the mastermind behind all this then, I asked myself.
Carefully infiltrating the building, I bumped into a young fellow wearing a bright yellow shirt and a pair of blue jeans. He doesn't seem to be one of the guards, and he seemed like he knew where the mastermind is, so he led me the way. As soon as we were in a room to look for clues, we suddenly heard someone coming in.
"Oh no! Someone's coming hide-! YIKES!"
The boy suddenly multiplied, but his copies were in different sizes. This must be his power, I thought. "Dammit kid, can't you turn back to normal?!" I whispered angrily, as I hide inside the closet. "I, uh, wish I could, but..."
"But what?"
The [original] boy then hid with me, as he said, "You see, I can't seem to get in full control of my powers so... ehehe..." He just smiled sheepishly. I groaned, as his copies try to hide in anyway they can. Then minutes later, the door creaked slowly...
To be continued...?
Labels: dreams
Sunday, October 26, 2008
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9:33 AM
Friends...
Can't live without them. Can't think without them. No joke. I love them till the very end.
But who am I kidding? Sure, they're really such great people, but it tends to get annoying once they try to help you get in a situation I shouldn't be in. I mean, seriously, I'm alright.
It's just that they were able to see some little truth in my other self.
But hell, so what if I am denying it? I'm alright with it, and nothing's gonna change it, even if that's the person itself who will so such thing.
Labels: random, thoughts
Thursday, October 23, 2008
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5:37 PM
Degraded
I've given all the help I can give, but it's all worthless to that person.
It seems like facing my old self is getting too annoying and stuff. Yes, I have to admit my old self from the past was very irritating and immature. For the love of God, can't we all just live and grow in a simple way? Sadly, not all people can do it.
Yes, it's hard, but it's one of the ways to get all the problems away.
Leave Out All Rest
by Linkin Park
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]
Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are
(Credits to AZLyrics.com)
Labels: curses, thoughts
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
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2:26 AM
The Curses of the Outside World
Can you blame a witch who is tough-looking, but is STILL a sensitive mortal in the inside?
What can I do when I have so much people to treasure?
Why must I feel like I must carry their burden as well? Why do I feel like throwing the old ones away just to start anew? Why must most of my memories turn into cursed thinkings?
... Why must the people close to me be my weaknesses as well...
This is all... so unfair...
My head spins with my fantasy whilst my body trips over reality.
This must be the curse of the outside world to me. When all I feel is... soulless.
My Soulless Sanctuary.
Labels: curses, thoughts
Sunday, October 19, 2008
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6:29 PM
Cursed Atmosphere
The environment is at stake...
So is my body.
Damn atmosphere... Humans can be such good workers in ruining the environment to affect the atmosphere.
Labels: curses, random
Friday, October 17, 2008
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4:18 AM
The Coming...
Wolves will howl when the full moon has risen.
Restless spirits will start to wander around the Earth to seek unfinished business.
Soft whispers of sadness will be heard in your ears.
Undying wails of despair and angst will be heard along the empty spaces you walk by.
Either they are harmful or not, you cannot stop them from roaming around with us.
Just be thankful that the hand on your shoulder right now isn't a zombie's.
This is the spirit of Haloween.
Labels: spells
Saturday, October 11, 2008
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7:21 AM
Past is Past, Present is Present
We all must walk forward to the path we have chosen.
To find our true destiny.
To reach our desired dreams.
To become someone who we really are.
But why does it mean sacrificing everything we have left in our minds? I certainly feel a little indifferent about my everything from the past, but... I never imagine I have to feel like this.
When I think about it... I'm not sure whether I should feel like this... It just... wasn't me...
Must I carry my the burden of my past? It's just not fair to leave everything behind. So... what will become of them...?
Labels: thoughts
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
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6:22 AM
My world has gone into chaos...
Just when peace is just a mere walk away.
WHAT IN BLAZES? xD;
Labels: random
Monday, October 6, 2008
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12:55 AM
Lust for Arts and Games
I seriously want to draw...
But now that some games I always wanted are with me now...
Meh, I'll decide. My passion is so lustful to me...
Labels: random
Spell by; Pilar